This is terrible, i can't even controll it!?

I am 14, too, and I feel that way quite a lot. I have never been diagnosed with anything other than ADHD, but I have been to counseling for family problems and stuff. And by the way, congrats on overcoming your depression! That's a big step. :) But frankly, life does go by quickly and there isn't really anything we can do but make the most of it. You just have to live everyday like it's your last, tell your loved ones how much you love and appreciate them, and do everything you can to make your days special and accomplish everything you want to. Now everyday won't be perfect, but we shouldn't have any regrets, because all of these days, whether perfect or not so great, make up what we call life. :) Hope I helped!