Hi I am a lesbian and am confused and am scared to tell my family?

Hi I am Amanda am 17 years old and am in love with girls I was so scared at school that I want control my self couse I attended a all girls school when I was young I remember in grade 5 I kissed this cute girl at it all started from there I really liked her and she was a good kisser so then I went back to school and she told me that she was going to tell about us kissing in the play area I was scared and worrid but she change school afther summer passed I was so upset because I loved her and I still do till today but then I got over it I meet new friends in the past years and tried to controll my romantic life for girls I dream every night about this girl that we kiss and stuff it nice to dream couse any can happen I am scared to tell my parents and grandparents about it that am gay because they want accept me at all my parents and grandparents a very religious so they kick me our of the house ? Since I have dreams of kissing girls and stuff am losing my controll my behaver ? I just want to have a girlfriend that will love me and respect me do who and what I am I hope u can maybe understand my back ground if any one is a lesbian and u got skype add me pls ask me and I add u